Wednesday, August 29th, 2007
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5:57 pm - shit shit shit shit shiiiiit
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Well im baaaack on live journal. Need to vent! so much stuff has happend. For one! I suck at everything. I have been trying like hell to have a suprise party for jon for his birthday like his sister and I are planning it. Ive been i.ming his friends and having tocome up with some bs reason why I am i.ming his friends and ugh and now i have someone who has no where to go so I talked to jon and asked if they could come here and he said yes but now hes stressed and i fucked up and im reading all of my old post and seeing all the stuff about me and jon and just realizinghow everything is my fault and how i fuck up everything. I cant wait for his family to find out i invited people to stay with us and they can all talk about how much of a fuck up i am and how stupid it was and all this. I just want to help thats all i didn't think there was any harm in helping people out. Us helping is going to be hard i understand but us being with out a home would be even harder thats the eway i look at it idont even know im just going to cry somewhere!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Friday, September 15th, 2006
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9:15 pm
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ugh you know what i cant fucking stand men i fucking sware they are stupid or something or they just stright up have fucking problems UGH i am pissed off and having a bad day and i jsut wanna fucking smack every one ever and afh;sdv dajnvcm vn ;aeftrk;cvj x,mbnseo[f a;kfjsdf dfthj wruio UGH
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Thursday, September 7th, 2006
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11:43 pm
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Alright so today i decided that i am never oging to get over what happend last year... when jon broke up with me and started dating sarah im never going to get over it i wont i cant i tried i duno why it bothers me i guess because he just left me and ditched me wanted nothing to do with me ? I duno but theres a ton of little things that remind me of it and im never gonna et oer it ... it drives me nuts it still hurts all the appologies in the world wont make things better. I duno what to do. I give up. I just dont think im ever going to be happy again :(
current mood:  stressed
current music: Sponge bob Square pants
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Wednesday, September 6th, 2006
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1:15 pm - fucking son of a fucking biiiiiiitch
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UGH im so fucking annoyed right now This stupid fucking livejournal thing is pissing me off pretty fucking bad today. But i went to bed in a bad mood last night. Ne ways i dont know what im fucking doing about ne thing at all ne more. I woke up to an eviction notice in my face like thats not humiliating or something ya know? Its like your looking at this person and they are looking at you like hey you cant pay your rent even tho thats not the case anyways i want to move really bad its almost like i wish i didnt move in here but then again if i didnt mve in here i wouldnt be with jon right now im sure but maybe then again that would be a good thing.... it always seems like every time i get in to a relationship with a guy i always end up wanting somegirl which right now is more then obvious i do but lets not get in to that because that is a whole diffrent story. Anywasssssssssssssssssssss i wanna get the fuck out of this appartment... i wanna move closer to my friends and family or at least by some of them or atleast maybe by some kind of actuall civilization theres nothing around here that i can walk to and every time that is broght up i here you will have a car soon hunny but thats just like bs because i doubg that i will who cares i wnt have a lisence for ever ne ways ... i really hate this place like every day i wake up just hoping to get the fuck out of here but no. and now on to a diffrent problem i have been thinking about... Why does it seem like no matter who you are or if your a girl and your having a conversation with a guy it seems like every thing you say goes in one ear and out the other its like they done listen your trying to gat your point accross to them but its like HEY BITCH IM FUCKING TALKING TNJOW AND I AM GOING OVER POWER YOU NO MATTER WHAT THE FUCK YOU SAY even tho thats not what was said but still it sure feels like it. IM LIKE UGH I JUST WISH I COULD POOF YOU AND MAKE U DISAPEAR OR SOMETHING. and then to top off my wonderful morning i feel like shit and im having a hard time breathing and jons like LETS GO TO THE GYM OR LETS GET OUT AND DO SOMETHING and im like wtf man seriously i dont fucking feel good do u care and he says well im just trying to take care of you WELL IF YOU WANT TO FUCKING TAKE CARE OF ME THEN FUCKING GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF THIS STUPID FUCKING CITY AND THIS STUPID FUCKING APARTMENT SO I CAN GET MY FUCKING LIFE BACK TOGETHER OR SOMETHING I HATE IT HERE I CANT DO NE THING I SIT HERE ALL DAY LONG HOPING SOME ONE I LIKE TO TALK TO COMES ONLINE OR I PLAY WITH MY MYSPACE ALL DAY BUT YOU KNOW WHAT JON WOULD SAY TO THAT HE WOULD SAY "GO OUT SIDE HUNNY GO FOR A WALK" news mother fucking flash there is nothing around here nothing to walk to im not going to mother fucking walk around this apartment all fucking day and look at all the nasty slutty fucking skanky whores that walk around here see im not him i dont like that ne ways im going to take a bath now when i am back i will vent more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111
current mood:  pissed off
current music: The used - is in my head lol
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11:35 am - Crushed...........
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Well they wouldnt call it a crush if you didnt get crushed in the end right?
current mood:  crushed
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Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
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7:01 pm
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cant get this person off my mind. wanna see them want to stare in to there beaiful eyes and kiss there sweet lips i wanna feel there body i wanna do so many things. . . im going slightly crazy im tingly inside.. its a great feeling i havent felt it in so long... I would do just about anything to just sit next to this person and talk or cuddle or something.......... to feel a womans touch is the greteast feeling ever... <3 I got a great feeling you know who you are and that embarases me but why should it i dont care if you know how i feel any more because well its how i feel i cant change that <3 much love
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10:59 am
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Ugh so I dont feel good my stomach hurts and i am like way nautious jon woke me up typeing really loudly im like wtf are u doing hes like checking my email im like... ok and are u trying to break the computer while your at it. He didnt answer me... But anyways I am gonna go <3 Much love.
current mood:  content
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Sunday, September 3rd, 2006
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5:45 pm - i hate myself
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I have resently started to dislike myself more and more as time goes.... it seems everyday jon mr perfecto says somethito make me feel like shit. I HAVE NO SELF CONFIDENCE ANYMORE i hate being the ugly fat girl but wtf am i to do? nothing i can do but keep feeling like shit
current mood:  depressed
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Friday, September 1st, 2006
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11:09 am
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| A Fun Myspace Survey To Do When Your Bored | | About You | | Name:: | Tia Hicks | | Birthdate:: | 2/9/87 | | Birthplace:: | Flint Michigan | | Current Location:: | Novi Michigan | | Eye Color:: | Blue | | Hair Color:: | Red soon to be black | | Height:: | 5'8 | | Piercings:: | just ears | | Tatoos:: | 6 | | Do You Have A Boyfriend/Girlfriend:: | Husband | | Favorites | | Food:: | Chicken | | Candy:: | Starburst | | Ice Cream:: | humm.. I duno i like icecream with stuff in Cookies or candy or something | | Number:: | wtf? 5? | | Color:: | Pink and black | | Animal:: | Hippo | | Drink:: | Um water | | Bagel:: | Onion | | Letter:: | c | | Body Part On Opposite Sex:: | PENIS? | | This Or That: | | Pepsi or Coke:: | pepsi | | McDonalds or Burger King:: | burger king | | Gum or Mints:: | either | | Hot Tea or Ice Tea:: | neither | | Chocolate or Vanilla:: | chocolate | | Hot Chocolate or Coffee:: | hot chocolate | | Kiss or Hug:: | kiss | | Dog or Cat:: | cat | | Punk or Alternative Rock:: | punk | | Summer or Winter:: | winter | | Scary or Funny Movies:: | funny | | Love or Money:: | love | | Your | | Bedtime:: | whenevver i can fall asleep | | Most Missed Memory:: | having friends to hang with | | Best Physical Feature:: | none | | First Thought Waking Up:: | ugh another day sitting here doiongnothing all day long | | Best Friends:: | u know at the moment ... amber :-D | | Parents Names:: | Brenda | | Have You | | Ever Drank:: | yes | | Ever Been Drunk:: | yes | | Ever Smoked:: | yuck | | Ever Been Beaten Up:: | nope | | Ever Beaten Someone Up:: | yep | | Ever Shoplifted:: | yep | | Ever Kissed The Opposite Sex:: | fuck yes! | | In a Guy/Girl | | Favorite Eye Color:: | Blue or green | | Favorite Hair Color:: | black | | Short or Long Hair:: | short | | Height:: | dosentmatter | | Looks or Personality:: | personality | | Hot or Cute:: | either | | Randoms | | Do You LIke Thunderstorms:: | nooo | | Do You Think Your Attractive:: | noooooooo | | Do You Believe In Yourself:: | nope | | Do You Sing:: | yes | | Do You Want To Get Married:: | already am | | Do You Want Kids:: | already have onebut want another | | Hate Anyone:: | lets not go there | Take this survey | Find more surveys
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current mood:  amused
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10:46 am - TIRED
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im tired Im cranky. I am having a bad morning. I hate everything My husband is annoying. I really wanna just slap him in his big ass fucking head sometimes. UGH someone just wanna take him for a few days?
current mood:  tired
current music: Elmos world
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Thursday, August 31st, 2006
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11:27 am - men....................... enough said? nope.....
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So i wake up this morning after having some stupid dreams and I ask my husband a few questions. U know just normal questions like why am i with u ? YOU LIE TO ME TO MUCH! seriously like i catch him in a new lie every day. Every single day like girls call him out of no where and im like who is that? and he says just an old friend. my next question oh someone u used to sleep with? he says ... no ... ok u ever doanything he says no come to find out he has done things with her.. like i dont care but why must helie? ok and then theres like a week ago right when he was doing somework on the computer... i was getting angry and was like why is it taking so long so i went in there and he was doing it and he said he would be done in 5 minutes. after anouther hour i walk in the bedroom and hes looking at porn UGH i have NOT BEEN WAITING AN HOUR FOR U TO COME TO BED WHEN U ARE LOOOKING AT FUCKING PORN then he says welli just wanted to see what everyone else liked about it so much ... like come the fuck on are you serious the is the dumbest bs thing i have ever heard in my whole entire life seriously BS !!!!! ok and then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fucking then finially he tells me the fucking truth well the girls are hot... and im like how often do u do this... he says maybe once a week im like wtf we got married amonth ago am i not good enough or what.... and u know I DONT CARE LOOK AT PORN BUT DONT FUCKING TELL ME YOUR FUCKING WORKING AND LIE TO ME WHILE IM WAITING FOR YOU TO FUCKING COME TO FUCKINGBED U STUPID FUCKING UGH and anyways he just lies like way to fucking much for me to fucking handle and u know i love him dont get me wrong but like the only thing good that came from his was my friendshit with amber! cuz she rocks
<3 MEN FUCKING SUCK ASS
current mood:  aggravated
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Monday, August 28th, 2006
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2:37 pm - UGH
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I fucking hate novi michigan it is full of stuck up people who just suck also my husband is to fucking annoyhing he thinks that he can make everything alright by talking to someone he thinks hes going to get out of everything but the fact is that he dosent everythingstays the same but hey at least he got to try what a fucking moron some times i just wanna slap him like seriously we have to pay an extra 200 dollars just because our rent was a week late! like how fucking dumb tell them to shove the appartment building up there fucking asses it isnt that nice anyways and i never liked it anyways .... it is just styupid if u ask me anyways! i love him what can i do. just wish he would see thing my frickedn way for once but whatever nothing i can do about it i am just the wife!
On a good note tho it seems to be nice today at least it looks nice to me. ANd i would love to go out or go to the mall or something but............... NO. i cant do that. because.................. we have no fricken money to do anything and probably never will because of this stupid apartment place! ugggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ok well im done bitching leave some comments or something. im off to pretty myself up!
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Saturday, August 26th, 2006
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10:31 am - Blah
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Well the first entry is supposed to be the best out of them all but as of this moment its not going to be imsure in the futre i will have a very interesting jerry springer type journal here for you to read. BUTTTTT i currently have nothing HI AMBER LOOK I MADE A LIVE JOURNAL EVEN THO U DIDNT REMIND ME IN TEN MINUTES LIKE YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO AND I HAD TO REMIND MYSELF THIS MORNING BUTTHOLE!
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